Thursday, January 26, 2012

How Long, O Lord?

Reading through Job is neither easy nor fun.  Yesterday,  my mind contemplated skipping to the end where restoration and redemption abounded.  Yet in order to grasp the whole picture, I had to press on.

"Why doesn't the Almighty open the court and bring judgment? Why must the godly wait for him in vain? Evil people steal land by moving the boundary markers. They steal flocks of sheep, and they even take donkeys from the poor and fatherless. A poor widow must surrender her valuable ox as collateral for a loan. The poor are kicked aside; the needy must hide together for safety . . . The groans of the dying rise from the city, and the wounded cry for help, yet God does not respond to their moaning . . . The murderer rises in the early dawn to kill the poor and needy . . . the adulterer waits for twilight and says 'No one will see me' " (Job. 24:1-4, 12, 14-15)

Not the most comforting words to read in the morning, as I sit with my coffee cup in hand and look for words of life to feed my soul.  Why isn't God bringing justice?   Why does He allow suffering?  Oh I've asked it so many times myself.  My bathroom floor is oftentimes where I end up when the tears flow most freely and the cries of my heart are laced with why.  Sorrow grips my heart when I hear stories of abuse, rejection, and loss.  There are moments I find it hard to even do the next thing when I reflect upon my own daughter's pain, which is steeped in lies regarding her beauty and worth.  In my despair, I have said many times, "How long, O Lord?" 

Today, as I pick up where I left off, with coffee in hand, words of life do indeed break through, "And this is what God says to all humanity, 'The fear of the Lord is true wisdom.'" (Job 28:28)  It amazes me that in the midst of despair, Job comes back to this.  In the beginning when he lost it all, he did not curse God, and as the days passed and his grief deepened, he kept coming back to revering the Lord.  God in His infinite wisdom had to see and know something that Job didn't.  All this suffering had to somehow make sense to the Almighty, and Job was not going to let up until his case would be heard.   The enemy was convinced that Job would crumble when all was stripped away, yet God knew Job would endure.  God knew!  Wisdom would prevail, and Job would be restored.

Oh Lord, You know!  When all seems lost and words fail, this is how I can get back up and keep going.  The tears shed on my bathroom floor are not in vain.  The why questions that plague my heart are heard by the Almighty, and I find the peace and strength I need to press on.

He knows where I am going. And when he tests me, I will come out as pure as gold!  (Job 23:10)

Saturday, January 21, 2012

The New Fish



The New Fish
  By: Audrey Fish (age 7)

Once upon a time there was a family that wanted to adopt a baby. So they went to Thailand to be Missionaries. They had a friend that knew a woman that was pregnant and could not take care of the baby. So the Fish’s prayed for the woman. Then the Fish’s went to an orphanage to see other babies. They saw a little girl that had no parents only nannies. So they talked to the nannies about the girl. The nannies said her name was Mekala. The Fish family went back home to eat dinner. The next day the Fish’s came to a church to meet the mother of the baby. The mother of the baby said the baby was a girl. That afternoon the Fish family went back to the orphanage to see Mekala again. They noticed that she went back to her family. So the Fish’s went back home to do other stuff. They prayed and asked Jesus, “Do you want us to adopt this baby?” The next day they decided to go to the lady's house. When they got there the lady said, “Will you adopt my baby?” The Fish’s said, “Yes.” So the next day the Fish’s went to Nakon Nayok with their friend. It was a flood outside. The Fish’s waited for the mother and the baby a long time. And then finally they came and the mother kissed the baby goodbye and put the baby in Mrs. Fish’s arms. Mrs. Fish cried. The baby looked up at her and smiled. The baby knew that she got a new family. The Fish’s named the baby Audrey Napah Fish. The years passed by and one day when Audrey was five she asked her mother, “Can you tell me my birth story?” The mother told her the story and when the story was over Audrey asked her mother, “When will I see my birth mother again?” Her mother said I don’t know. Audrey wanted to see her birth mother. She knew some day she’d get to see her again.

The End.  


Thursday, January 19, 2012

Worth the Wait!

I love Joseph's story.  I especially love how the Lord works all the difficult for good in the end, but the length of time it took for the good to come about really struck me as I recently read this very familiar narrative.  Years passed as a rejected brother, then there was the long season as Potiphar's slave, and then finally even more years in the Egyptian prison.  How difficult this must have been?  After Joseph interpreted the cup-bearer's dream, Joseph asked that his name be mentioned to Pharaoh.  Here was a  God-given opportunity to finally get on with his life, but sadly, Joseph was forgotten by the cup-bearer.  FORGOTTEN, the Scriptures say!  Two more years would pass in that lonely prison cell before his name would be remembered and mentioned to Pharaoh.  I tried to envision what that would have been like.  All those long seasons of waiting had to have been torturous at times.  His mind probably often traveled back to those early days when he dreamed dreams.  What good had those dreams been, for he was now separated from the family that he loved, locked away in a prison cell, and forgotten.  Can you relate?  I can.

I've never been locked away in a literal prison cell, but sometimes those steel bars, though invisible to the eye, can clearly be seen in my heart, leaving me immobile and feeling forgotten.  It's in these times of waiting that my faith has been tried the most.  Every time the Lord speaks a Word or gives a dream, encouraging me to believe and step out, there's always a season of waiting.  Sometimes the wait period is short and other times it is painfully long.  Always I am left wondering if I had really heard from Him and asking, "Hadn't You promised, Lord?"  In these moments, only the shield of faith can help me to conquer those fiery darts that the enemy throws at me.

Thankfully, Joseph's story has an ending.  I'm so glad we weren't left to wonder what happened to that awestruck dreamer.  We clearly see in the story that God had not forgotten Joseph nor his dreams. What was intended for evil, God worked for good and many lives were saved as a result.  If we asked Joseph today if it had been worth the wait, I am confident he would have said, "Yes!  A thousand times, YES!"  I needed this reminder this week.  There are some things I've been praying about for years now.  Words of promise I have been believing, yet I remain waiting.  Family and friends I long to see free, dreams yet to be fulfilled, closure to important issues, and more.  I must admit, there are days I wonder if God will ever do what He has promised.  I get tired of waiting and feel forgotten.  God must think I'm a broken record, always laying before Him these concerns.  Then I remember that His Word will not return void!  God will do what He has promised.  His ways, His thoughts are not my own.  They are better . . . infinitely better!  So I will keep waiting and believing, for someday my eyes will see.

"Then Jesus said, "Did I not tell you that if you believed, you would see the glory of God?" (John 11:40)

Saturday, January 14, 2012

Dare ya!

I keep hearing Richard's words in my head, "less is more," and after that last blog, you're probably thinking the same thing.  Yeah, yeah, I know, but when my heart is full, it's hard to keep it short and sweet.  However for this blog, I'm going to cut to the chase.  YOU are loved!  For God so loved _____ that He gave His only begotten Son. Go ahead, just put your name right in that blank.  Say it over and over, then look in a mirror and say it again, but don't stop there.  The next step is to believe it!  That's the hard part, at least it was for me, but believing this truth has changed my life!

Yesterday, I was reminded of God's love in a very strange place.  Instead of skipping over that dreaded section of genealogies found in Genesis and Chronicles, I found myself thinking about those names all day.  Countless of men and women, who were fearfully and wonderfully made in our Creator's image and who God knew by name, filled the pages of my Bible and my mind.  That's a lot of names, and He knew each one inside and out.  Amazing!  Then I thought about the women I met earlier this week at the local jail.  I went with the desire to encourage these women with the love of God, yet as I left there it seems that God used these women to encourage me.  Women with a history.  Women whom God knows by name.  Women deeply loved!  I can't even express how this made my heart rejoice.  I didn't see these women as criminals.  What I saw were women with names and stories who longed for love just as I have.  We were no different and in that time of worship, as we sang about our Lord's amazing grace, God's love broke through.  Tears filled the hearts of the broken and we dared to believe, "I am loved!"

Now, go on; fill in that blank with your name and BELIEVE!  I dare you :D

Friday, January 13, 2012

These Are the Days of Our Lives

I'm not a big fan of soap operas, although I used to be.  Days of Our Lives was a must watch show for many years, but over time I began to not like all the drama.  Give me something more uplifting, please!  So I turned to America's Funniest Home Videos.  Laughing at other people's blunders was way more enjoyable than despairing over Bo and Hope's relationship!

Last night at small group, a good friend kept us in stitches commenting on how Genesis was none other than a soap opera itself.  Such scandalous material found in this one book!  There's Abraham and Isaac both lying about their wives being their sister (although Sarah was Abraham's half-sister).  Lot's daughters decide to go to bed with their father in order to conceive (GROSS!).  Jacob manipulates Esau for his birthright.  Rebekah convinces Jacob to deceive his father and steal Esau's blessing.  Laban deceives Jacob by giving him Leah instead of Rachel on his wedding night (still not sure how Jacob didn't know until the next morning!).  Rachel lies to her father and hides the family idols.  A whole town of men are told to circumcise themselves in order to make a treaty but instead they're slaughtered when they least expect it.  Need I say more?  This IS soap opera material!  Such drama makes my head spin.  Where is the hope in the midst of all this depravity?

Early on in Genesis, the Lord says something very significant to Cain that I've not been able to shake, "'Why are you so angry?' the Lord asked him. 'Why do you look so dejected? You will be accepted if you respond in the right way.  But if you refuse to respond correctly, then watch out!  Sin is waiting to attack and destroy you, and you must subdue it (4:6-7)."  Clearly, Cain longed to be accepted, yet when told what to do, he didn't listen.  Jealousy drove him to kill his brother and in the end sin did destroy him.  The story ends by Cain leaving the Lord's presence.  He left the very One who loved him most.  For days I've been chewing on this story.  Aren't we all like Cain?  The longing for acceptance is real, something we all can relate to.  The Lord told Cain what to do.  The answer lay right before his face.  It wasn't rocket science or a mystery that needed to be solved.  There was a right way to respond and in doing so, sin would no longer be master in his life.  Unfortunately, Cain rejected God and sought to do things his own way, and sadly not much has changed today.  In our longing to be accepted, we often times look to everything but God to fill that void.  So, what is the "right way" to respond?  And how is it possible to subdue sin in a world racked with it?

It says in Genesis 15:6, "And Abraham believed the Lord, and the Lord declared him righteous because of his faith."  This is probably one of the most important verses in the whole Bible.  It's so important both Paul and James make reference to it in their New Testament letters.  We are accepted by God when we believe in Him.  Period!  Paul says it so clearly in Romans 10:9, "If you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved."  This is good news and God has been proclaiming it since the very beginning of time!  Yet, I find this hard to believe.  Can it really be that simple?  Isn't there more?  Don't I need to try harder and do more in order to be accepted?


Sin is ugly and it does destroy.  I believe the enemy seeks to deceive us into believing that we must perform to be accepted.  Too much emphasis is put on ourselves, which keeps us blinded to the truth. Our only hope to overcome is Jesus.  Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob, the forefathers of our faith, were not perfect.  They sinned even after they believed, but the important thing is they believed.  Actually I am convinced they ended up obeying God BECAUSE they believed.  It's a good thing that Genesis clearly paints a picture of sinful man.  If we never read about our forefathers sins than we might believe that salvation is based off of performance.  Grace is found in these stories.  Unmerited, undeserved grace!  Undoubtedly, we should marvel at their performance.  Taking Isaac up that mountain in obedience to God's command was no small thing, but it's the grace of God we must marvel at most.  Only Abba, our loving Father, could save us from such depravity.  Only He could make us a people, who once were not accepted, accepted in His eyes, and only He can equip us to walk this road of faith.  Thankfully, in these days of our lives there IS hope for us all, and His name is JESUS!

Sunday, January 8, 2012

Sons of God, Beautiful Women and Giants, OH MY!

So I'm reading through the Chronological Bible this year, and already I am having to scratch my head at some of the stories.  "When the human population began to grow rapidly on the earth the sons of God saw the beautiful women of the human race and took any they wanted for their wives . . . in those days, and even afterwards, giants lived on the earth, for whenever the sons of God had intercourse with human women, they gave birth to children who became the heroes mentioned in legends of old."  (Genesis 6:1-2, 4)  WHAT!  Who in the world are these sons of God that produced giants with women of the human race?  This definitely sounds like a sci-fi story if you ask me.  And people say the Bible is boring.  I've never heard a preacher preach on this passage, and I'm not sure I want to.  Maybe it's best this one is left a mystery.  Yet, I know that all the stories are not to remain mysterious to us.  The stories of the saints of old reveal something very important for us today.  God is great and following Him is nothing short of adventurous.

After reading Noah and Abraham's story, I also recognize that following the Lord isn't easy.  As a child I distinctly remember the beauty of rainbows and promises in these stories, but as an adult I see the significance and difficulty of obedience.  So much of the story is untold.  What was Noah thinking when the Lord said to him, "I have decided to destroy all living creatures, for the earth is filled with violence because of them.  Yes, I will wipe them all from the face of the earth!" (Gen. 6:13)  Noah had friends and family that he was close to.  There were siblings, parents, fellow companions and neighbors that he cared about.  No doubt, this was heartbreaking news!  If that wasn't difficult enough, next God asks him to build this gigantic boat so that he could take care of the entire animal kingdom!  Imagine what Noah must have been feeling.  The world as he knew it was going to be destroyed.  How painful and lonely it must have been to build that boat knowing what he knew.  Yet Noah's thoughts aren't what we read.  His actions spoke louder than words, "So Noah did everything exactly as God had commanded him." (Gen. 6:22)

Abraham's story is no different.  The Lord tells him, "Leave your country, your relatives, and your father's house, and go to the land I will show you."  Just think about it.  Abraham was asked to leave his home, the place he was most comfortable, and go.  He wasn't told where he was going.  He simply was told to go.  Imagine packing your bags, not knowing where you're going, yet getting in your car and driving until the Lord says stop.  People must have thought he was crazy.  Abraham probably had a moment or two when he thought he was crazy himself.  Yet once again actions speak louder than words, "So Abraham departed as the Lord had instructed him." (Gen. 12:4)

These stories really stand out to me.  How could these guys do it?  What enabled them to lay it all down and obey?  Belief!  Both Noah and Abraham were said to be righteous: men who believed God.  Because they believed they could do nothing else but obey, even though it was difficult and costly.  They weren't thinking about what they were giving up because they had their eyes set on the prize.  I want to be like them.  The rainbows and promises found in these stories remain very special to me, but I am even more thankful for this heritage of faith that's been passed down through the ages.  My prayer is that Abba finds me faith-full and willing to obey no matter what.

"Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a huge crowd of witnesses to the life of faith, let us strip off every weight that slows us down, especially the sin that so easily trips us up. And let us run with endurance the race God has set before us.  We do this by keeping our eyes on Jesus, the champion who initiates and perfects our faith." (Heb. 12:1-2)

Thursday, January 5, 2012

In the beginning . . .

I'm not a big fan of beginnings.  Every time I must start something anew, no matter how big or small, gripping fear and anxiety always paralyzes me.  Sometimes I'm immovable for just a brief moment, other times for days on end.  Why?  Maybe it's because all beginnings hold failures of some sort.  I am who I am today because of my losses, but no fall is without pain.  I think I'm more afraid of the unknown than failure though.  Where will this beginning end?  What roads will I have to walk?  What mountains will be climbed?  What valleys trudged?  Can I possibly persevere regardless of what happens?  These questions and many more make beginnings unpleasant for me.

"In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth." (Gen. 1:1).  Truly God was not afraid of failure.  He couldn't have been afraid of the unknown either.  For He is omniscient, knowing everything that the future would hold.  Yet amazingly, knowing all didn't stop Him.  It could have.  I think it would have me.  "You mean people are going to reject me, want to be gods themselves, and destroy my creation as a result."  Nope, I would have squashed that idea like a bug.  Yet God wasn't thinking about all the negative things that would happen.  He saw the beginning as an opportunity to create.  Could it be that He began with the end in mind, knowing that He would make all things new?

It's 2012, a new year full of beginnings and occasions to create.  Even now as I type and think about the possibilities that lie before me, my stomach gets queasy and my heart flutters.  What will this year hold?  What losses will have to be counted?  What unknown way trekked?  Can I possibly endure?  In the beginning God . . . He was in the beginning, and He is in the now, and He will be in my tomorrow.  This truth settles my unnerved heart.  I can take a deep breath and relax a bit.  Maybe beginnings aren't so bad afterall.  Maybe I too need to keep the end in mind as I begin.  For He who began a good work in me will be faithful to complete it.